Sunday, February 28, 2010
' 12:22 PM
-Resolve,Resume & Reap are th 3R's in my head right now~~-
Okeyy i'm just gonna make this long and wordy, cause only people who give a damn about me will bother to read my post's, whether it's all words, all picture's or bullshit they'll still read it cause they care! so here goes,~~
hello people , i know many people have been re-visiting my blog just to check if i've updated, i've got plenty of comments saying my blog's dead ah, got spider web and all.! so i shall update to entertain those people! SO! what have i been up to recently... lets see.. i've strayed away from the people @ Green, wonder if they even once said '' eh where gab go ah? miss him sia.'' or just a ''hey wan call gab come green mahs'' i also gam wan.. but i guess i'm thinking a hell too much eh.. well been looking at myself in the mirror for the pass day's that i've stayed home, and every single time i look into it, i see a problem.. i'm not as perfect and great as i thought i was.. i'm just a lazy bum staying at home wasting his life away.. the precious time i've wasted could never be recovered but what am i doing about it?! nothing but telling myself tomorrows gonna be a better day, i keep running from the facts.. and i just can't stop running, i'm full of excuses and crap, and i've been looking at how other people have changed for the better.. for the best.. and i look back at myself and ask myself.. have i changed at all? i'm still that lazy hot headed kid i was back then... just that i'm a little calmer and matured now.. but even so..is that enough? can i even make it out there? well.. this has gone through my mind over and over every single day i sit down at switch my computer on, and everytime i play my games or watch my anime.. all that goes through my mind is this '' is this really how i should spend my time? i've wasted enough time and now i'm repeating my same old mistakes, i need a job but i'm too darn lazy to find one.. and i'm not qualified but i want a good and decent pay! ok forget about this, i guess i'm just tired'' but i guess th fact is that i'm not mentally tired or anything, i'm just tired of my own fcking excuses and lies! why can't i be like everyone else? being able to get off from their bed when they want to, able to make up their minds and stick to it instead of being so FUCKING FICKLE MINDED! arghh... brother's are great, friend's are important, lover's are part of us, parent's love and care.. but when it all goes down the drain.. your all alone inside no matter how hard anyone tries to get to you.. all we do is push them away saying that we're fine when we're not and we don't even know how to solve the problems in our hearts... and yeah i got my wish , staying at home everyday, don't have to go to school, don't have a care in th world at all..but what's it worth now.. it doesn't make me happy at all nor does it seem to help me in any means .. everybody wants to turn back the time so they could correct their own mistakes.. personally i have mistakes i wish i never made too..but can we really turn back time if we even had a wish or there was a miracle? i doubt that it'll help at all.. i'm beating myself up from the inside trying to find something meaningful to do but all i find inside is the anger and hatred i've kept deep down inside of me...everybody dreams.. people wanna be rich and make it big in life.. but i guess this world's too small for those big dream's... one day it'll all shatter and we'll have to start dreaming again.. all the lucky few that made it far never realise how lucky they are to be where they are .. imagine if they had to go back and lead a normal life for one week.. do you think they can tolerate or last at all? i don't even think i can remember what i've written here as it all came out so sudden... but one things for sure and that's my unhappiness !
Okeyy i'm just gonna make this long and wordy, cause only people who give a damn about me will bother to read my post's, whether it's all words, all picture's or bullshit they'll still read it cause they care! so here goes,~~
hello people , i know many people have been re-visiting my blog just to check if i've updated, i've got plenty of comments saying my blog's dead ah, got spider web and all.! so i shall update to entertain those people! SO! what have i been up to recently... lets see.. i've strayed away from the people @ Green, wonder if they even once said '' eh where gab go ah? miss him sia.'' or just a ''hey wan call gab come green mahs'' i also gam wan.. but i guess i'm thinking a hell too much eh.. well been looking at myself in the mirror for the pass day's that i've stayed home, and every single time i look into it, i see a problem.. i'm not as perfect and great as i thought i was.. i'm just a lazy bum staying at home wasting his life away.. the precious time i've wasted could never be recovered but what am i doing about it?! nothing but telling myself tomorrows gonna be a better day, i keep running from the facts.. and i just can't stop running, i'm full of excuses and crap, and i've been looking at how other people have changed for the better.. for the best.. and i look back at myself and ask myself.. have i changed at all? i'm still that lazy hot headed kid i was back then... just that i'm a little calmer and matured now.. but even so..is that enough? can i even make it out there? well.. this has gone through my mind over and over every single day i sit down at switch my computer on, and everytime i play my games or watch my anime.. all that goes through my mind is this '' is this really how i should spend my time? i've wasted enough time and now i'm repeating my same old mistakes, i need a job but i'm too darn lazy to find one.. and i'm not qualified but i want a good and decent pay! ok forget about this, i guess i'm just tired'' but i guess th fact is that i'm not mentally tired or anything, i'm just tired of my own fcking excuses and lies! why can't i be like everyone else? being able to get off from their bed when they want to, able to make up their minds and stick to it instead of being so FUCKING FICKLE MINDED! arghh... brother's are great, friend's are important, lover's are part of us, parent's love and care.. but when it all goes down the drain.. your all alone inside no matter how hard anyone tries to get to you.. all we do is push them away saying that we're fine when we're not and we don't even know how to solve the problems in our hearts... and yeah i got my wish , staying at home everyday, don't have to go to school, don't have a care in th world at all..but what's it worth now.. it doesn't make me happy at all nor does it seem to help me in any means .. everybody wants to turn back the time so they could correct their own mistakes.. personally i have mistakes i wish i never made too..but can we really turn back time if we even had a wish or there was a miracle? i doubt that it'll help at all.. i'm beating myself up from the inside trying to find something meaningful to do but all i find inside is the anger and hatred i've kept deep down inside of me...everybody dreams.. people wanna be rich and make it big in life.. but i guess this world's too small for those big dream's... one day it'll all shatter and we'll have to start dreaming again.. all the lucky few that made it far never realise how lucky they are to be where they are .. imagine if they had to go back and lead a normal life for one week.. do you think they can tolerate or last at all? i don't even think i can remember what i've written here as it all came out so sudden... but one things for sure and that's my unhappiness !
___________________________In time's like these i wish someone could turn my life around..but..fat hope huh? hahas..
Tag Replies.!
T.HuiMin;; never study cos no ite want's to take me in due to my records. =) & happy CNY
ShaoBin;; not at all
T.HuiMin;; never study cos no ite want's to take me in due to my records. =) & happy CNY
ShaoBin;; not at all
' 12:22 PM
Saturday, February 6, 2010
' 4:03 PM
-Drink Drank Drunk Gone~-
ohaiyo! damn i am sooo lazy to update this dying blog, haven't even took the time to fix my music player =x.. anyways! went shop a few days back with ahsoon and sx! sooo long since i saw soon.. damn... and ytd met up with olivia and nicky! damn it its really been like 3 years since we last hung out like we did yesterday! omg!! really brought back e times... drank like crazy, had lots of fun... and now still got hangover.. rahhh~ anyways! had a fun time yesterday! we should do it again soon guys ! tc with lots of love you two !
err... yeah finished by us =D
finally went to make this card = =''
wahaha fcking big shoe~ UK 45 if i rmb
This! is! ownage! ICECREAM!@#!@#
__in times to come, i'll realise right from wrong.!
Tag Replies.!
Sx;; np arsehole~
Jszeee;; hah!! you guess lo! anyways how have u been?!
Lyn♥;; ahahaha! bleahs~!@# bwg =x
Dom;; bye dickhead~
Tian;; fine fine, you? and i rott at home lo =D
Allison;; okie relink'd!
SingEe;; wah!? simi dai ji!
ohaiyo! damn i am sooo lazy to update this dying blog, haven't even took the time to fix my music player =x.. anyways! went shop a few days back with ahsoon and sx! sooo long since i saw soon.. damn... and ytd met up with olivia and nicky! damn it its really been like 3 years since we last hung out like we did yesterday! omg!! really brought back e times... drank like crazy, had lots of fun... and now still got hangover.. rahhh~ anyways! had a fun time yesterday! we should do it again soon guys ! tc with lots of love you two !
err... yeah finished by us =D
finally went to make this card = =''
wahaha fcking big shoe~ UK 45 if i rmb
This! is! ownage! ICECREAM!@#!@#__in times to come, i'll realise right from wrong.!
Tag Replies.!
Sx;; np arsehole~
Jszeee;; hah!! you guess lo! anyways how have u been?!
Lyn♥;; ahahaha! bleahs~!@# bwg =x
Dom;; bye dickhead~
Tian;; fine fine, you? and i rott at home lo =D
Allison;; okie relink'd!
SingEe;; wah!? simi dai ji!
